The start of a new year is a time when people set goals for the year and celebrate the year that just ended. I am having a hard time with both of these things because last year was such a tough year and because I am fearful to plan too far ahead because we just don't know what the next year will look like. I know that this is not right and I need to walk forward in faith but sometimes that is easier said than done. On our bathroom mirror we have the verses from Philippians 4:6-7 which say, " Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." I am not sure that it could be any clearer in the bible what we are supposed to do when we are fearful. Living in a state of fear makes us anxious, irritable, unable to enjoy the moment we are living in and it takes our trust away from God. I know that God loves us and he is in control and when I pray he hears me so I just need to get better at giving him all my fears and enjoying each moment we have together.
We were able to enjoy a nice Christmas together with the 3 of us on Christmas morning and then in the afternoon we were with Rob's family and exchanged gifts and had a delicious meal. It was a good day and Isaac was a very excited little boy this year. On Boxing day my mom arrived for a few days and we had a great visit with her. She even made us a turkey dinner and I didn't have to share the stuffing with my siblings!! It was a good Christmas all in all but I sure did miss seeing my whole family as well. Thankfully we were able to Skype with them and for a few minutes it felt like we were in the chaos at the Farquharson house!
Rob has been doing pretty well and feeling better each day. He is getting his strength back and wants to get back into shape. He was able to maintain his weight pretty well during treatment however he has lost his muscle mass and would feel better to gain that back. He also still needs to sleep more. Before his first surgery he had no problem getting up at 6:30am everyday and working 55 hours a week. Now he has the energy to get through the day but he doesn't have a lot scheduled usually. It will take some time before his energy levels are back to what they should be. As far as eating he is getting back to where he was in the summer. He is able to enjoy soft foods if they are cut up but it just takes him a little longer.
On January 16th Rob has his follow-up CT Scan to see how things look. We are anxious to have this done and pray for good results. When you are in limbo like we are the smallest little thing makes you wonder and worry. Please pray with us for peace as we wait for those results and also that the scan shows that everything is good and nothing is growing. We will have to wait until Jan 29th for the results so it feels like it could be a long month! All along we have prayed that the treatment (which wasn't fun) would do what it is supposed to do and get rid of all of the cancer forever. Now that we are on the other side of treatment we are thankful to be done and praying for complete healing. I have often thought about Rob and I sharing our story and showing how good God is even when things seem unbearable. I pray that we have a lifetime together to do this.
Isaac is back at school for his 3 afternoons starting this week and I am back to working my regular hours. Rob keeps himself busy with jobs around the house or if he needs to just relax he is able to do that. The muscles in his neck have fibrosis from surgery and radiation and he needs to do daily stretches for the rest of his life to make sure it doesn't stiffen up. The speech language pathologist referred to the side effects of radiation as the gift that keeps on giving!
Monday evenings we usually have at home together as a family and it feels like we are normal on those nights. I even said to Rob last night after we had just had a dance competition (you can imagine how funny it was!) how much I love Monday nights and our fun times as a family. Sometimes it just feels good to forget about everything and just have a good laugh.
Thank you again for all your prayers and support.
Love Karen
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