God of the impossible.

Today was a day that I have had nightmares about and it came true this morning.  We met with Dr Nason and he told us the news we had feared since Rob's diagnosis.  They discussed Rob's case in conference this morning with the whole team and after seeing the MRI the consensus is that the node by Rob's collarbone is likely positive for cancer.  They do not have the needle biopsy results yet but basically those results will likely just confirm what they already know.  He said that if it does show up as positive that it would be considered incurable because even after the aggressive treatment they were not able to get rid of the cancer.  Surgery is not an option because it would not be able to fix the problem.  They would likely be able to treat it with radiation and possibly chemo to slow it down but would not be able to get rid of it. The spot in his mouth is still a concern and what to do with that is still a question.  I asked if the node on the collarbone could be something else and he said not likely. So now we wait for the biopsy report to come back and once they have confirmed it a treatment plan will be discussed. This will happen sometime in the next week. A friend asked me today if the node could come back negative.  According to the doctors probably not but we know that God can do anything.  We face the reality of what we were told today but we still have hope in a God who can heal and who promises His children eternity in heaven.  After Dr. Nason left the room we just sat there and cried.  We are broken and sad.  We don't know what the next few weeks hold but we were told to take it day by day.  We know we have today and we need to enjoy the day and our time together as much as we can.


Rob prayed this morning for God to do the impossible and he was hoping the impossible would be good news today but maybe the impossible will be that when the doctors say there is nothing else they can do that is when God steps in. 


Rob has also been referred to the pain management team at cancercare so that they can help him figure out the best pain relievers he should take.  He is in quite a bit of pain in his neck and mouth.  I know that it is getting worse because he has taken some T3's the last few days and he is not a fan of those. 


I don't even know how to ask you to pray but I do know that we continue to need an army of prayer warriors surrounding us.  We don't know if we have months or years but we pray that God would be glorified with every moment we enjoy together. 


Love Karen